No matter how....

No matter how old you are,or how intelligent..
How patient you are ,or how negligent..
No matter who you are- there comes a time you realise you are not who you are ..
There are people you would rather not loose,but wouldn't open your mouth too.
There are things you wouldn't wanna do, but wouldn't mind flowing into..
Your mistakes will define you, your sorrows will make you strong..
Your love will make you whole, and your smile will make you your's....

You will realise the world is never enough , it never will be..
Get up, throw away your wordly attire..
and spend your days loving yourself..
doing what you love the most!!!!

Thats how love is.

I watch those tears roll down my cheeks,
I watch them leave a smear.
Like I watch you slipping away from me
leaving behind those years..


I decide to smile,
Not cause I'm happy.
But cause I want you to be.
And I know where it lies.

I will put on that smile,
no matter how hard the tears roll.
Not for my selfish gain.
But for that smile on your face.

I know how it is to be yours,
and now I know how it is to be not.
I loved you like my own once,
I will love you like a stranger now.

I will not wait for you,
cause that isn't your choice.
I will watch you go,
hoping someday I will know- thats how love is!!!

The Phallic Gesture

The guy who used that finger to insult his ex after a break-up.
And that other one who thought its cool to use it,
or that girl who laughed at her friend who hurt his middle finger where all under the impression that the only use of your finger was to abuse someone.
But did they ever think of the ways it can be useful too?
I doubt.
The use of the middle finger as an abusive language dates back to centuries.

"It's one of the most ancient insult gestures known," says anthropologist Desmond Morris.

Here is the proof..

No arguing that it can represent a very intimate part of someone's body but how is even that abusive.??.
Don't they all have it, you would agree they all use it too.

Apart from this fact why do we always tend to forget it can be used in a lot of other ways..
Like when that bottle with a really narrow neck had your favourite nuts stuck to its bottom didn't you use it?
That being the tallest member of the family of your fingers didn't you use it to pull that dice in your favourite game...
We all remember that one time in your childhood when the teacher wrote something really high on the blackboard and you needed to point at it..didn't you use that finger?
Look around and you will see you can use the finger in a lot of ways..so why acclaim it as the abusive one...???

Save the drama...

All those years while you were growing up .
Through your childhood you picturised in your mind how you would want your lover or life partner to be like your father..who treats you like a princess.
While in your teens you thought of a picture of him as the usual tall,dark,handsome,loving,protective one,the one giving you flowers and chocolates and what not....
and then you thought you fell in love with the one while your teenage ends.
 later you realize he was just lame... you learn a lesson to stay away from creeps.
But why did you waste so much time?
Cause end of it all your teens ended,you reached your twenties and you fell in love with someone who is nothing like what you thought.
But he made you feel special,his very smell made you ecstatic,his words made you love him more.
his care made you wish for more,agreed you became a little greedy for a little more...
But you love him, you believe that he is the one ..he probably is...
But quintessentially he is not gonna be with you. He will leave you,your love will remain endless.
But you know that is going to the only one...
Cause you will never love that way ever again... ..
you will move on,marry have a life ahead... but someday sitting on that armchair,sipping on your cup of coffee,watching your children growing up you will think about him.
A tear or two will trickle down your cheeks.
and then you will look at your husband beside you give a smile ...cuddle him and move on again....
That is life ...the beauty lies in accepting your fate!!!

WEIRD!!!!!

Why do relations have an expiry date?

Its like a warranty card,maybe at times with extended ones.... but they do get over in a while....

why is it people do not co-exist together in someones life?

Why do we have to make space for someone else to come?

Why do people stop caring all of a sudden?

how do people hate someone?

What about the sacrifices you made too?

Do they mean nothing ever?

Why is it speaking up for yourself is bad?

Why does it hurt to forget someone?

WHY IS LIFE SO WEIRD?

Slow Down

Slow down ,take a breath .
Think before you take the next step.
Wonder why you are moving so fast?
Ever wondered what is the need to please someone?
What is the need to try so hard?
why the shame in showing your tears?
Why the hatred to the people who care?
Why judge someone ?
Why be biased based on color or figure?
Why the need to compete against someone?
why the need to think before deciding on something?

Slow down cause the world is not gonna stop and think about you...
you got to stop and just not wish to get a day off but grab the first opportunity and take it off!
don't fight cause that only shows you are loosing....
hold on tight there is something,someone, somewhere you can go to...

Slow down..cause you have to live on...
live for yourself..nothing else matters more!!!

What is love!!!

Since childhood we are told to love our near and dear ones....
Love those who give you chocolates,those whose feet you touch cause they are elder to you,those who you stay with everyday cause they will help you live...
Ever wondered they probably just tell you to love yourself so much that you only show love to everyone who might help you in a way or so....
You leave home eventually and reach a place where you know nothing about anyone..
You either fall prey to the defined ideas of love...they see you ,they like you,they give you flowers they say they love you and you get someone new to help you move on with life...
or else you start talking just because you know no one around but you need company,you need recreation and so you start loving,...
LOVING YOURSELF EVEN MORE...
But some of us look for real love... not for the love of thy self but for the love where you win when you loose!!!
For me love would be when someone steals glances to check if i'm doing fine in the mid of all the hustle bustle.
When someone calls me up just to check if i'm doing good,or give me company when i'm bore.
When I can be weird around them without having to be conscious about myself.
When I can laugh freely,when someone can make me smile even when i'm down..
When someone chooses to be with me for a while even with a lot of people around.
When someone calls you up  to check if you reached home.
Hold your hand when to assure you everything is gonna be fine.
Tells you you are beautiful even when you know you are not..
That last fag of their cigarette...or the last sip of their coke, maybe the last bite of their food.
And here I do not talk about a boyfriend or a girlfriend..
 I talk about friends.... being just friends whose hand you can hold without inhibitions...
Not a girl or not a boy in specific ..just a friend...
A LOVE..

All i want!!!

Growing up in small towns my dreams have always been to reach out...out to the world full of mysteries...a world full of new wonders..

Fly out ..see the world like a bird.

I want to live like a wanderer..pack a bag and move out.. people and money will come and go but the time to make memories will never come back....

Meet new and wonderful people...tell them about yourself cause you care not if they judge you... shout from the top of mount Titlis... watch your tears flow while you experience the Norway sun.

Run around the streets of Chefchaouen,in a white gown.

or probably take a boat through Venice with a bandanna and a torn jeans..

Climb the streets of  Cinque terre...

Live working for an NGO in Santorini...

or walk through the streets of Wroclaw...

Get married for a day in Las vegas.

Start with baby steps around the country...walk the streets of Jodhpur..

Ride a bike in Leh...

Stay in a house boat in Kerala...

Stay with the people of Kashmir get to know their life..

Learn the language Haryanvis speak...

Find a soul partner who could picturise you through all this....

(after all who doesn't like a candid pic... through the lens of someone who loves you.)

or get married when you are 35...in the palaces of Jaipur...

fly on a parachute... hold someone's hand while you sky dive..

go skiing in the snow..

get a license for snorkeling...

live a life while you can....

be so free the birds be jealous too.

A personal favourite!!!

 তুমি রবে নীরবে হৃদয়ে মম
নিবিড় নিভৃত পূর্ণিমানিশীথিনী-সম॥
          মম জীবন যৌবন    মম অখিল ভুবন
     তুমি    ভরিবে গৌরবে নিশীথিনী-সম॥
জাগিবে একাকী     তব করুণ আঁখি,
     তব অঞ্চলছায়া মোরে রহিবে ঢাকি।
          মম দুঃখবেদন    মম সফল স্বপন
     তুমি    ভরিবে সৌরভে নিশীথিনী-সম॥

Thou shalt dwell in silence in my heart like the full moon in the summer night.
Thy sad eyes shall watch over me in my wanderings.
The shadow of thy veil shall rest upon my heart
Thy breath like the full moon in the summer night shall hover about my dreams, making them fragrant.
- Translated by Rabindranath Tagore

Aimless stalkers!!!!!

I stay in this lovely town Manipal...where the crowd mostly consists of the students..

since I stay here almost 9 months a year ..and it's been 3 years now I would say I know this place well enough...

The other day (only after four months of getting my scooty here) I got the opportunity to go for a drive in the rain..the very famous rains of manipal..which can drench you physically or even in the lovely emotions attached to it....

I had my jacket on me,,..

For those who know manipal I hadn't crossed m.g.m school and I took a u turn back to home.

Near the polar bear shop(which is a good 10mins drive from my place) a guy on his scooty with his sweat shirt on..and a pair of shorts crossed my way...all the while staring at me like he has never seen  a girl, not even his mother or sister I guess..

Like any other person on the road I didn't bother to give him a second glance..

As I kept driving,this guy started following me..

sometimes moving towards me as if he wants to talk to me or probably touch me,..The way he was staring made me feel like a piece of cake he would wanna have...

he kept coming and going in front of me to the extent that I could have hit an elderly lady/...

Irritated with this behavior from a student who most probably is even younger to me..made me wonder is this what life is all about for such creeps...

Is this what our elders are teaching us these days?

This is how we respect their teachings?

So as I came closer to my house I entered this lane which is a bit deserted,this guy came just beside me..almost making an attempt to touch me...

I moved away but not much further and he was on my right side...the side I was supposed to enter my house...

For a good 5 mins I couldn't enter the gate since he was stopping me... and then  when I somehow managed to enter the place he kept taking turns to come in front of the gate and stare at me...but he didn't have the guts to enter since the guard was around...

Wonder if such creeps were born with only one aim in their life...

to be an aimless girl stalkers....

******... 

Someone!!!!

Someone to take care..
not to  take care of me,but maybe my thoughts..
Someone to love me...
not love me to be his own,but to be who i'm.
Someone to praise me...
for nothing more than what i am...
Someone to surprise me..
with nothing expensive,but his thoughts.
Someone to sit and watch me over a distance...
or probably offer me a drink,with his eyes...
Someone to accept me for who i am..
Someone who wants to be with me..
not be forced to be!!!
Someone for whom I am important...
even if he chooses to fool around...
Someone to understand his worth in my life..
without misjudging me...
Someone who takes me for a coffee date.
.or maybe a ride to the beach
Someone who prefers to hold my hand only to assure his presence ..
not to show off to the world..
Someone who is not scared to acknowledge my presence in their life..
Someone who doesn't choose me over others...
 but definitely a me at times...
Someone who doesn't try to impress me...
but just love me enough to not have to state it!!!



Someone who deserves me!!!!

wounds of passion!!!

You made me cry inflicting wounds of passion.
Give me pleasure as it gives immense pain.

I walk alone in the journey for our secret meeting.
may rhythms of pain soar high in eternal walking!!!

And wouldn't life give it all new meanings at all times....!!!!

In thy love....

In your love i shall suffer all mortifications.

I shall assume all stains of all humiliation.

Shall pluck the thorns strewn your way.

In grimes, wherever you lay.

I shall spread your raiment

Airing your melody.

Shall not allow piousness anymore

Shall not abide by the rules anymore.

In whichever swamp those foot tramp.

Shall etch on heart that stamp...

I hope its all worth it though!!!!

Walk Past......

Life is a weird thing!!!!...
Everyday,every moment it teaches you a new lesson..
The funny part is the people involved in doing that probably don't even know the role they play in all this....

In all these years i have been through a journey called life... started with a caravan
Own thoughts, own world,own happiness...
Moved into  a car raced around to be what our parents desired us to be,( cause then we didn't have the maturity to take our decisions..)
Took a bike and whooped past a lot of small lovely corners just to make something out of the little ball of wax i was....
Then started the real game..
Where they told me to take a ride on a rollercoaster ( believe me when i say this i used to be very scared of rollercoasters)
Yet i took the ride,,,, eventually started the topsy turvy...curvy ,bumpy dangerous ride....
i finished it too... no matter how big a mess i became after that ,,, i finished the game....

Life is never easy.... it takes you through everything you never thought would happen to you...EVENTUALLY
Walk past the bad... they are meant to teach you something!!!!